About Me – January 2017

imageJANUARY 2017

WOW!  I can’t believe it has been 10 months since I started to put my crazy idea for a website in to practice.  I’ve debated with myself long and hard whether I should rewrite the ‘About Me‘ section to make it current or whether in fact I create part 2.  As you can tell, I went with the part 2, purely to show how far I have come and that indeed, there have been backward steps.

2016 was certainly a year of transition for me.  Having added to my Happy Jar throughout the year, I set about on New Years Eve to read through all the items I had added and it was so uplifting to remind myself of all the amazing things I had done.

I mentioned in part 1 that I was weaning myself off my anti depressants but wasnt sure how it would pan out.  I can say now, that I have been medication free since June 2016.  It has taken some adjusting to no longer feeling numb and experiencing emotions again has been difficult, but so far so good.  Yes, there have been low points where I have thought long and hard about taking them again but I have found that each time, the low feelings haven’t lasted long and I have been able to climb back out of the hole, easier and quicker than the time before.  There are times when anxiety and depression takes control, but I vowed I would control it and yes, I’ve taken that control back each time.  It is something that I will walk hand in hand with for the rest of my life, but that’s okay.

Since my first adventure to London (whilst still under the comfort blanket of medication), I have been on many other adventures and challenged myself both mentally and physically – medication free.  I think the biggest of these was to do a tandem sky dive from 15,000 feet and in doing so, I raised £825 for the mental health charity MIND and was one of Just Givings top 5 fundraisers in October.  What makes it even more amazing is that it was all done in just over 1 week.

I’m still putting 1 foot in front of the other, taking life 1 step at a time but I firmly believe I’ve got this!